im sad
but i suppose you wouldnt have to be too smart to notice that
today i cried most of the day at work & last night i cried most of the early night.
Broke up with bf, due to me being depressed most of the time and then i dont talk to him & dont know how to act cus i know he gets angry & grumpy when im sad or dont talk.. and it just pushes me futher away because then i am scared to say anything incase its the wrong thing.. then i get sad because im a boring person & no fun to hang around cus i feel sad n crap n why would hewant to hang around someone like that and i know he'd be having tons more fun if he wasnt around me... and thats the way it goes
so im going to brisbane tomorrow & even though its going to cost me a fortune to take rocky, im taking him with me, because lets face it, hes the best friend i have at the moment AND ITS A FUCKING DOG.
i shouldnt say that, because barry has been very good to me lately & i really appreciate it xx
apart from this i have nothing to say, im running home to my mum for comfort only instead of a usual 30min-1hour drive as most ppl have, i have to take to the air for an hour thirty
hoping i can sort my head out & try and be happy & then im hoping to come back n try things with bf again, but maybe that it is unrealistic expectation, as i dont expect him to wait, im sure over the next few weeks he will have much fun with other girls
*tries to not think about this*
but i know its true,
hope everyone has a good week & is happy
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chilli:
I just spent my entire weeks wages on latex and boots. *doh*
endquire:
I am very happy for you. I wish you the best always. Life is tenuous and fragile. All that matters is what is important to you in your life. The people who love you for you no matter what. Most importantly living the life that you want to live by the rules you choose for yourself. Just be happy, people get too wrapped up in this imaginary world and forget that everything could be gone tomorrow.