Today i attended the funeral of one of my closest friend's father, he is also one of the people i share this house with.
It was very sad, i tried hard to not cry, but when they lower the coffin into the ground, its just so sad. Just thinking about a human, in that coffin.. i would have cried even if i didnt know the person or the family, it is just a very sad thing to think about.
And it just all happened so quick, only about 4 months ago he was diagnosed with cancer, cus he got the flu and it wouldnt clear up and turned into pneumonia (sp) he went into hospital, and that is how they found out..
I had/have a dad, and i did see him a while ago, for the first time in how many years?? well 21 years since he last made an effort and brought me a present for my b'day. I saw him once when i was about 12 and i didnt even tknow it was him, we drove away and mum said you know who that man was - that was your father - he didnt even say much to me then, then this year i saw him, because the whole time since mum and dad broke up i have always seen and kept in touch with my cousins, grandparents etc on that side of the family, and i see them twice a year at my b'day and at Xmas. He has never made any effort even tho he knew how to contact me. Even now i gave grandma and grandpop my address and email address and phone numbers, he was at their house when i gave it to them, he saw it i wrote it in front of him, cus he was back living with them and he hardly spoke to me, but what would i have said anyway?
they sent me a card for my b'day, but not him nothing from him his name wasnt even on the card?
After this happened, and i saw him this year, i cried over my friend's relationship with his dad, because i thought it was so perfect, and i just wanted that as well, they had so much love and respect for each other.. He had a dad, i have never in my whole life been able to use the word dad.. and now that has been taken away from him.. Its a pain i will never know, but an empitness i have always felt.
It was very sad, i tried hard to not cry, but when they lower the coffin into the ground, its just so sad. Just thinking about a human, in that coffin.. i would have cried even if i didnt know the person or the family, it is just a very sad thing to think about.
And it just all happened so quick, only about 4 months ago he was diagnosed with cancer, cus he got the flu and it wouldnt clear up and turned into pneumonia (sp) he went into hospital, and that is how they found out..
I had/have a dad, and i did see him a while ago, for the first time in how many years?? well 21 years since he last made an effort and brought me a present for my b'day. I saw him once when i was about 12 and i didnt even tknow it was him, we drove away and mum said you know who that man was - that was your father - he didnt even say much to me then, then this year i saw him, because the whole time since mum and dad broke up i have always seen and kept in touch with my cousins, grandparents etc on that side of the family, and i see them twice a year at my b'day and at Xmas. He has never made any effort even tho he knew how to contact me. Even now i gave grandma and grandpop my address and email address and phone numbers, he was at their house when i gave it to them, he saw it i wrote it in front of him, cus he was back living with them and he hardly spoke to me, but what would i have said anyway?
they sent me a card for my b'day, but not him nothing from him his name wasnt even on the card?
After this happened, and i saw him this year, i cried over my friend's relationship with his dad, because i thought it was so perfect, and i just wanted that as well, they had so much love and respect for each other.. He had a dad, i have never in my whole life been able to use the word dad.. and now that has been taken away from him.. Its a pain i will never know, but an empitness i have always felt.
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lowroller:
Sorry to hear about that and I hope you're feeling ok.
francbert:
hey, you have been quiet lately. where are you doing at the mo?