tamari

My mind, as horrid as it can be is mine. It is the shark in the waters of my soul. It is the hatred abandoned by God cast into the depths of hell. I am the abomination created by it. There is no freedom from it, and no rest for the wicked. It poisons my spirit and churns my stomach to the point of vomiting. Thoughts are the toxins which silence the heart of each being. Crushing the feelings one should have and creating far fetched assumptions used to fuel emotional thought. The flames of disgust torch my being until i completely shut down. Until i can clear my mind the thoughts literally eat me alive, I cry in agony. There is nothing that can be done, no one that can help. You cant run from your own thoughts. God tortures me, or finds ways for me to torture myself. I hold the burdens others cant, Maybe i asked for it in a past life. Maybe my spirit was cast out, maybe. Once again, more thoughts.