tally

i'm overwhelmed with feelings of the unknown. i sit and sit and then sit some more, but i never understand anything. i dont believe i've ever felt so lonely or lost; and there have been times when i've felt extremely lost! now however is different, i feel like i dont even understand the smallest thing about myself. i wish i could run away from myself, but i know that is not possible. and if i could i don't think i'd know where to run i don't like these feelings of the unknown...normally i strive to discover and thrill in the fact that i don't know, but now it's driving me insane. wait, i was already insane so i suppose it is only making me all the madder.