I've been diving into music than ever. Listening and playing.
All these unsure feelings are getting on my nerves, spawning the need for some sort of catharsis. One can only tell oneself "still upper lip" so many times before it loses it's effect, so perhaps it's time to expand my horizons even more. There is a place in this city...a place shaped like me...where I can simply slide in, come to a rest, and feel at ease. I want to find it, and when I do, I envision the path I'm on to become more brightly lit. And while I don't exactly know where I'm headed, I just want to achieve some sort of equilibrium. And some good old fashioned human interaction would be welcome...this current habitat is lacking in that department. I guess I'm just tired of all this waiting...relying on others, who delegate when the drama can subside, and decide when I can take action. I want that surge of doing something I haven't done before, and that I didn't think I could do before...nothing beats that feeling of an impulsive gut reaction that pays off in the end.
All these unsure feelings are getting on my nerves, spawning the need for some sort of catharsis. One can only tell oneself "still upper lip" so many times before it loses it's effect, so perhaps it's time to expand my horizons even more. There is a place in this city...a place shaped like me...where I can simply slide in, come to a rest, and feel at ease. I want to find it, and when I do, I envision the path I'm on to become more brightly lit. And while I don't exactly know where I'm headed, I just want to achieve some sort of equilibrium. And some good old fashioned human interaction would be welcome...this current habitat is lacking in that department. I guess I'm just tired of all this waiting...relying on others, who delegate when the drama can subside, and decide when I can take action. I want that surge of doing something I haven't done before, and that I didn't think I could do before...nothing beats that feeling of an impulsive gut reaction that pays off in the end.