tallmikewine

So I've been in my current apartment for about a year now. This means I can make a decision about perhaps relocating. And what it is I really want. Do I want to move into The City (from Oakland)? Perhaps head to Seattle. Or someplace else entirely. I think my family would find it odd if I moved anyplace other than Seattle, since I moved here to California with my Ex because of her job (and a desire to get back to the Big City). She's out of the picture now too of course, as loyal readers will note.

Yeah, it's a lot of thought. Thought that gets me thinking about my year here. What have I to show for it? Anything? Not really. Seems my life now revolves around working, sleeping, having a few cocktails before crashing, and surfing the net to take my mind off of how directionless my life has become. At least I don't have a TV and sit mindlessly watching that thing for hour on end. The internet at least makes you be a little bit interactive in order to sit and watch it for long periods of time.

But what is it I want to do with my life? I'm 40, single, with a decent job (not the best pay, and not too much satisfaction to be honest, but it's not a hard job either). What do I want? What do I want?

Someone to share it all with, and perhaps learn a new trick or two from. Of course this makes me sound like I don't have a life and NEED a girlfriend to make my life happen. And maybe this is partially true. If that is, why?

Why?
How?
Where?
What?

Who am I? Really. Do I exist? I sometimes wonder.

Alright, enough navel gazing for one day.

Hope Morgan is feeling better today. Now she'd be a fun person to have this conversation with.

Hmmm....