guess it's time for an update, since the last one sort of might have left the impression that I was on a downer and getting further down....
Well I seem to be right back up again. Jenny, the super smart super cool super cool newspaper girl who I've been bein' real tight with seems now to really be diggin' on me. As much as I have been diggin' on her since we met. Yeah, she's' still NYC bound at the end of July for the fellowship at columbia (this is epic brain stuff, well beyond my grasp). And yeah she's still plannin' on being solo when she goes to NYC (neither of us, I don't think, are good candidates for LDRs). BUT I think she's now under my spell and can't get enough, keeps inviting me to stay over at her place, and even seems to enjoy holding hands when we walk down the street (I'm a good hand holder). So perhaps she'll just enjoy the time we have for the next couple of months and not think about it too much. Then it ends and we both are enriched from the experience. Right?
Okay, quickly, my ex....the one who about 8 months ago moved out under the explanation of "I need to be on my own and make all my own decisions and become who it is I'm supposed to be...ON MY OWN!" This after 4 years, two major moves (spokane to LA, LA to SF). Now are you ready for the funny part? She is taking a new job in Houston (that's not the funny part, wait for it!), the guys she's been seeing is going with (sort of funny since she's supposed to be on her own, right, but not THE funny part, wait, here it is...) AND they are getting......can you guess? MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Would this give you cause to giggle at her? I did. Then I got a bit angry, then giggled some more. Then I was alright until I told the story to some people (my dad, Jenny, a few people at work) and they all were upset and had to ask "are you okay"? getting all concerned.....then of course I got to thinking that maybe I should be more bummed out (because they seemed to treat me as if I might be) and they kept on with the "are you okay" stuff....so pretty soon I was feeling all emotional. Like they'd pulled it outta me. Then for an evening I was a little "not okay".
But now I'm okay.
Although we still have yet to exchange some minor stuff that didn't end up in the right place when we parted, now she wants to get it done before she leaves town. And she's being freaky about it. Won't come here, wants me to go there or meet in a neutral place.
What=Ever! What, are you not tough enough to visit my crappy little apartment, the one I had to move to since we weren't a two income couple who could afford a nice place like the place we moved to in the first place? Afraid you'll feel guilty for me being alone with my cats? You don't wanna say goodbye to my cats? I thought you were tough? Wanted to be alone, on your own! Guess not. You either changed your mind, or you were just told me a big lie about all that shit.
Oh, am I venting? Ooops! Well you get the point.
Hey, I seem to notice many entries about prom. Is it here in SF? Is it this weekend? Damnit! Any SGs gonna be around town hanging out where a nice guy might meet them and say hey? That might be fun.
Okay....enough about me!
(for now)
Well I seem to be right back up again. Jenny, the super smart super cool super cool newspaper girl who I've been bein' real tight with seems now to really be diggin' on me. As much as I have been diggin' on her since we met. Yeah, she's' still NYC bound at the end of July for the fellowship at columbia (this is epic brain stuff, well beyond my grasp). And yeah she's still plannin' on being solo when she goes to NYC (neither of us, I don't think, are good candidates for LDRs). BUT I think she's now under my spell and can't get enough, keeps inviting me to stay over at her place, and even seems to enjoy holding hands when we walk down the street (I'm a good hand holder). So perhaps she'll just enjoy the time we have for the next couple of months and not think about it too much. Then it ends and we both are enriched from the experience. Right?
Okay, quickly, my ex....the one who about 8 months ago moved out under the explanation of "I need to be on my own and make all my own decisions and become who it is I'm supposed to be...ON MY OWN!" This after 4 years, two major moves (spokane to LA, LA to SF). Now are you ready for the funny part? She is taking a new job in Houston (that's not the funny part, wait for it!), the guys she's been seeing is going with (sort of funny since she's supposed to be on her own, right, but not THE funny part, wait, here it is...) AND they are getting......can you guess? MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Would this give you cause to giggle at her? I did. Then I got a bit angry, then giggled some more. Then I was alright until I told the story to some people (my dad, Jenny, a few people at work) and they all were upset and had to ask "are you okay"? getting all concerned.....then of course I got to thinking that maybe I should be more bummed out (because they seemed to treat me as if I might be) and they kept on with the "are you okay" stuff....so pretty soon I was feeling all emotional. Like they'd pulled it outta me. Then for an evening I was a little "not okay".
But now I'm okay.
Although we still have yet to exchange some minor stuff that didn't end up in the right place when we parted, now she wants to get it done before she leaves town. And she's being freaky about it. Won't come here, wants me to go there or meet in a neutral place.
What=Ever! What, are you not tough enough to visit my crappy little apartment, the one I had to move to since we weren't a two income couple who could afford a nice place like the place we moved to in the first place? Afraid you'll feel guilty for me being alone with my cats? You don't wanna say goodbye to my cats? I thought you were tough? Wanted to be alone, on your own! Guess not. You either changed your mind, or you were just told me a big lie about all that shit.
Oh, am I venting? Ooops! Well you get the point.
Hey, I seem to notice many entries about prom. Is it here in SF? Is it this weekend? Damnit! Any SGs gonna be around town hanging out where a nice guy might meet them and say hey? That might be fun.
Okay....enough about me!
(for now)
morgan:
Unfortunately today is the day I am leaving and I'm leaving in about half an hour 