tallahassee

This is from the photoshoot I did yesterday. Why did I do a shoot? Because in just about a week or so, Ill be losing the dreadlings. I am very about this, but it has to happen. My constant tightening and crocheting and over-pampering has lead to too-tight dreads, scalp issues, and (and this is the worst part) some of my hair starting to fall out. I had my suspicions for a while now Id been tightening too much and too often, and apparently I was right. So now I have to comb them out, cut off my hair, grow it back out, and start ALL OVER. The hardest thing is knowing that because of other genetic problems I have, since my hair grows slower and tends to be more brittle than most peoples, itll probably be a good solid year or so before my hair is healthy enough to handle the dreading process again.

I have never loved a single one of my body mods more than my dreads, and I cannot possibly express how sad I am to see them go. Ive put so much time and effort into them, it hurts so much to find out that that time and effort is actually the root of my problem. But, stopping the whole hair loss issue before it becomes permanent is more important to me, so Ill make the sacrifice. Ill just have to be more careful next time and try to lay off the weekly tightenings.

In the meantime, I have no idea what to do with my hair. Im sure Im going to have to lose several inches off the ends, but exactly how much I cant be sure of til the dreads are out. Im assuming Ill end up with something in between shoulder length and chin length. If anyone wants to suggest some styles that might look good, not require straightening or blowdrying (I want to grow it out a lot longer this time, so I need to avoid damaging it any further.), and not require constant haircuts, Im all ears. My hair is naturally very fine and not-quite-curly (its wavy but can be almost curly when it wants to be) if that helps.

Also, if I seem lessspunky or whateverthan usual, its because I am. I just got some MORE bad news today that I dont really feel like sharing over the internet and its getting increasingly difficult to keep that smile in place. First I find out my first dog, the oldest friend I have left in this world, might be dying, then I find out I have to get rid of my dreads, and now this. Its been a really amazing couple days, and I cant thank my friends enough for that, but this is really just too much.


This is my buddy Trevor, probably about a year ago. I took this when I was bedridden for about a week. He and his brother kept me company the whole time. Now it might be time to return the favor. Please keep him in your thoughts and let's hope that he's just gotten a little more senile and that nothing's really wrong with him. I can't lose another friend right now.