tallahassee

is happee! no really. i have a busy ass day ahead of me, i need to find out who i have to beg to let me sign up for classes late this semester so i can get my life back on track. or rather start over. however you look at it, i'm finally moving in the direction of progress. i'll come back and explain the situation later, but the asshole of an ex breaking up with me might actually have been the best thing anyone's ever done for me. he finally set me free and made it perfectly clear to me that the whole reason i've been so unhappy was a hidden resentment at the fact that i was living my life based entirely on him. i gave up school, job opportunities, and travelling europe all because i would miss him too much if i were away. but you know what? now i don't miss him at all. i am SOOOO much better off without him inadvertently holding me back. so now i'm going to go to the community college this year like i was supposed to, sign up for every scholarship and grant out there, and go to my dream school either next year or the year after. however long it takes, i WILL get the money together and make it happen. i WILL. and i'm going to have a good time there. i would say i'm back, but the truth is, i'm not! this is a whole new side of me which no one has ever seen before, where i live MY life for ME for once, instead of for everyone around me. and i like the new me. the new me is pretty badass if i may say so myself. mr, sinus infection, you will not get me down today, I AM GOING THE FUCK OUTSIDE! ok back tomorrow with a blog that makes more sense. just had to announce my return haha!

and since i love emoticons so much, this was me yesterday:

(<that was me realizing how much better life is now that he set me free)

and this is me today:



see? much better! kbye!