I feel if I were to kill myself, hanging myself Christmas Eve would be best and I can leave a note saying, "I wanted to ruin Christmas for everyone, maybe deck out in holiday cloths." 
There's something about moving everything in my room around and completely making it look different. Like not having to feel stuck in the same mood as my room has been for the past month. I guess this is why stores change there store front every month or so.
I got a nice reality check today.
Trying to figure out how to use the anger I have as motivation to work..
Where all this anger came from I don't know. Could be the holidays, could be the fact that I'm upset with myself for not achieving as much as I wanted to this month. Could be the whole thing with my car. Whatever it is I'm trying to make something positive of it... but It's just not working out well. I should be working, or cleaning or something, instead I'm on here..
There's something about moving everything in my room around and completely making it look different. Like not having to feel stuck in the same mood as my room has been for the past month. I guess this is why stores change there store front every month or so.
I got a nice reality check today.
Trying to figure out how to use the anger I have as motivation to work..
Where all this anger came from I don't know. Could be the holidays, could be the fact that I'm upset with myself for not achieving as much as I wanted to this month. Could be the whole thing with my car. Whatever it is I'm trying to make something positive of it... but It's just not working out well. I should be working, or cleaning or something, instead I'm on here..
lemolaura:
I love changing everything, makes you feel like the rooms new and fresh. Everyone gets angry, just try to focus it into something good. Anyways I think being on here is much better than working or cleaning! x