well,
the wedding went well,
ill have pictures to post soon.
it was weird standing there, my freind, the groom, smiling from ear to ear. too think, not more than a few years ago he and i cared for nothing more than pumping rust thorugh our vains. pawing familys christmas presents, in and out of rehabs, jails, sleeping in unfinished buildings, spending most nights talking eachother out of taking our own lives... and the funny thing is... the only reason we really didnt want to do it was because we didnt beleive you could get high after death.... now... im at his wedding... in boca raton florida, surrounded by familly members who not too long ago would have not been too upset at seeing us in the obituaries because it would only mean they wouldnt have to worry anymore. 2 years ago someone told the 4 of us, he i and 2 other freinds there was a 5% chance that one of us of the four might stay clean for more than 6 months .. and odds said with in 2 years one of us would be dead. over 2 years later, the four of us are still here... in tuxes.. at one of our freinds wedding, all still clean and sober.. all alive.. all smiling.. today all 4 of us work in treatment... running those centers and halfway houses that told us we wouldnt make it. helping others like us find what it took me ten years and 16 institutions to realize.... fuck statistics... fuck the odds... fuck the past....
life... happiness, love, respect, honor, trust, family, freinds, success.....
its all out there waiting for you... for everyone..
you just got to get off youre self loathing, sorry ass and take it.....
"
"true hapiness is a find best harvested from true pain"---------------Mongo **the man who picked me up from the ER and drove me to my last rehab** R.I.P 2004
TAKK
the wedding went well,
ill have pictures to post soon.
it was weird standing there, my freind, the groom, smiling from ear to ear. too think, not more than a few years ago he and i cared for nothing more than pumping rust thorugh our vains. pawing familys christmas presents, in and out of rehabs, jails, sleeping in unfinished buildings, spending most nights talking eachother out of taking our own lives... and the funny thing is... the only reason we really didnt want to do it was because we didnt beleive you could get high after death.... now... im at his wedding... in boca raton florida, surrounded by familly members who not too long ago would have not been too upset at seeing us in the obituaries because it would only mean they wouldnt have to worry anymore. 2 years ago someone told the 4 of us, he i and 2 other freinds there was a 5% chance that one of us of the four might stay clean for more than 6 months .. and odds said with in 2 years one of us would be dead. over 2 years later, the four of us are still here... in tuxes.. at one of our freinds wedding, all still clean and sober.. all alive.. all smiling.. today all 4 of us work in treatment... running those centers and halfway houses that told us we wouldnt make it. helping others like us find what it took me ten years and 16 institutions to realize.... fuck statistics... fuck the odds... fuck the past....
life... happiness, love, respect, honor, trust, family, freinds, success.....
its all out there waiting for you... for everyone..
you just got to get off youre self loathing, sorry ass and take it.....
"
"true hapiness is a find best harvested from true pain"---------------Mongo **the man who picked me up from the ER and drove me to my last rehab** R.I.P 2004
TAKK
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figmentation:
congrats
doublec:
did you get the cookies i left you?