im not sure why but im not in a good mood today, maybee its the rain... depressing day.. which is odd for me becasuse i RARELY get depressed anymore.... im usually the guy trying to
cheer people up, i suppose its because
1.ive recently spent allot of time being haggled by an ex fiancee in philly who i was with for like 4 years, we split she got engaged to someone else.. then decided in the process she wanted to get back with me... only in the mean time i realized just how insane she was... so now im doing the whole dodge calls thing and its drivin me nuts.
2.a band who has a deal lost there bass player and has been trying to get me to come on and play for them on a tour and possibly join full time, but ive finally got my dream job helping others recover from drugs & alcohaul so its like im being tested... go back to the music life 30 hotels in 45 days with not a pot to piss in, hoping our hooks are good enough to sell a cd.... or for once stay put and build a normal life... well i made the decision already ...to stay.. but it definitly has given the "what if monster" full access to my head.
3.step father is severly ill.. practically overnight... up north... mothers torn up.. and here i am in florida.. completely out of reach. and no matter how many people down here i think im heling it seems insignifigant when a loved one is dying.
4. last but not least with all this going on being as im new to this area a thousand miles from anyone ive known more than a year.... the only good place i have to get it out is the internet
im not a derpressed person.... and actually love my life and all ive been graced with,.... but i just needed to rant a bit. ill be back to my normal retarded self by nightfall!!!!
"and acceptance is the answer to all our problems today"
cheer people up, i suppose its because
1.ive recently spent allot of time being haggled by an ex fiancee in philly who i was with for like 4 years, we split she got engaged to someone else.. then decided in the process she wanted to get back with me... only in the mean time i realized just how insane she was... so now im doing the whole dodge calls thing and its drivin me nuts.
2.a band who has a deal lost there bass player and has been trying to get me to come on and play for them on a tour and possibly join full time, but ive finally got my dream job helping others recover from drugs & alcohaul so its like im being tested... go back to the music life 30 hotels in 45 days with not a pot to piss in, hoping our hooks are good enough to sell a cd.... or for once stay put and build a normal life... well i made the decision already ...to stay.. but it definitly has given the "what if monster" full access to my head.
3.step father is severly ill.. practically overnight... up north... mothers torn up.. and here i am in florida.. completely out of reach. and no matter how many people down here i think im heling it seems insignifigant when a loved one is dying.
4. last but not least with all this going on being as im new to this area a thousand miles from anyone ive known more than a year.... the only good place i have to get it out is the internet
im not a derpressed person.... and actually love my life and all ive been graced with,.... but i just needed to rant a bit. ill be back to my normal retarded self by nightfall!!!!
"and acceptance is the answer to all our problems today"
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itzjusme:
you're awesome! 
zazie:
u need to update son.