taiwan

yea so--

i'm supposed to have a summer job and don't- therefore i should be doing fucking awesome in my one class- but i don't really go or tend to care that much- although i did read 1 of 4 chapters yesterday that we've been assigned in two weeks- i have a test on friday- so we'll see how well i do on it- and if i can keep being a slacker- or if i do really need to try- the class is cognitive psychology- not too easy- but ok- anyways- i feel like i do nothing with myself- i am poor- and i have a lot of bills- yet i went to indy this last weekend and spent two hundred dollars and from monday till today- wednesday- i've spent pretty much another hundred dollars- i think i have like 4hundred left for the remainder of my summer (july and august) -- so yea i'm fucking myself over- and somehow i'm supposed to go visit my x-roommate in august in miami- but how am i going to afford that- and my asian friends are getting married in taiwan at the end of july-and they really want me to come- and all i would have to pay for would be the plane ticket and they would pay for everything else- but plane tickets are like $1400 so i dunno- i wanna go- it would be an experience - but fuckin where is this summer job i'm supposed to have- why do i uncontrollably spend money- why am i fucking incapable of being responsible...

i'm just getting shit- out-

you don't need to tell me i'm fucking worthless.