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So i got some money on monday afternoon and decided to go to Grand Forks. Halfway there my car starts having problems. I make it there, get my oil changed, and drive around but notice i no longer have heat in my car. So i fill up the anti-freeze which helps for ten minutes, then it gets cold again. So i have to stay the...
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judas:
c'est la vie, my lad. we're all in the shit.

still, i wish you luck with yours.
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Accomplished a little bit this weekend. Did some homework, took the suck out of my Soc. questions/essay, and watched the superbowl. Won a fair amount of money because of the pats... good pats.

Do i go with Vidden and Laura to New Orleans or the Virgin Islands... hmm... money isn't going to be an object, but i fucking hate flying. worst...migranes...ever... i want to but...
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judas:
poor intellectual whores. get a fucking spine.

shame on you. i just wrote this missive to the man in charge of that nasty site you've recommended:

"dallas.

i find your whole analysis offensive (mostly in the approach), yet perfectly accurate, barring some things.

for instance: i have male friends i would fuck, and i know my male friends would also fuck me, but there are reasons that doesn't happen other than what you've stated. such as, these people are horrible in any kind of sexual/romantic commitment and i just don't want to deal with that. or, they (or i) are in committed relationships that are genuinely based on respect.

so by the definitions you've laid out, both would technically be on the "real" ladder in a woman's world. but they're not. they don't have a prayer, no matter how much i fantacise about licking their nipples. it just ain't gonna happen--unless they suddenly submit to years of therapy and quit their addictions, which will never happen. and with the conversations i have had with my male "friends", it would seem the same is true of them. this is perfectly kosher. it is a recognition of "there's no fucking way we're going to work out, so it's not worth it to either of us emotionally to ever get involved. let's go have coffee."

also. i am not a bitch. i can be a bitch, i can be a cunt, i can be an unholy dervish of absolute evil. but what i AM is not a bitch. what is generally defined as my bitchy behaviour is that i am 100% honest all of the time, and the average person cannot handle it. my friends, however, find this rather enjoyable. i can be relied on for advice that is never sugar coated, and i do expect the same from them.

futhermore, though i would appreciate dating someone who had money, i am generally the "bread winner" in any given relationship. i buy them clothes, i pay for drinks, dinner, movies. i do this because i am fully aware that they haven't the means to return the favour. what i do expect in return is gratitude, perhaps a little dish washing or dinner making or "hey baby let me read you this erotic story in bed." i fail to see where that fits into a power/money category.

but it's true that i want a really fucking sexy guy. or girl. though i would never commit to a female (for they are as a general rule, quite evil), i do enjoy a bit o' boobie every now and again. someone who is well dressed (which can always be done cheaply), educated on art, music, food and wine, and knows how to style their hair is very high on my list. they can ride the bus, work as a waiter, play guitar for pennies on the street. but they better never be uncomfortable ordering a tuna steak or the right wine to go with it, and if they are, they better have the cojones to admit it and let me do the talking.

and then they'll get fucked right solid when we get home.

so, mock what i've had to say at will. i expect that will happen. i just think that what you're doing with this page is perpetuating behaviour, a certain kind of disgusting alpha male stick your dick in whatever you can find sort of dogma, and i find this vile. women don't want a nice guy. they don't want a fucking asshole either. they want someone who is at turns gentle, fragile, easy going, difficult, generous, etc... we want an enigma who isn't afraid to bare his soul. it just has to be done with the right nuance, and that's the fact you're missing. you don't have to be an intellectual whore all your life, all you need to do is gain a little backbone and be the best of both worlds..."
southernbelle:
Virgin Islands!!! biggrin
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no trip.

no money.

lots of anger.

i'm stuck in this fucking town on a weekend where i have no tv.

someone rescue me, for the love of god! or at least bring my tv.
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neodrunk:
you've done it to yourself! why on god's green earth would you want to go to school in poopsville? normandale community college... it's the same result, bub.

tonguemiao!!
cipher:
James, you should know better than that. You can have plenty of fun without a TV, fool!

OK, seriously, of course you miss GF right now. For one, you had the expectation of going and got stiffed. Moreover---hell, doing I really have to explain to you why this is bothering you? Fuck, man, I'm not your therapist. Anyway...be creative. Crash a party. Abuse nuns. Something.

In other news, I apparently downloaded "Policy of Truth" as a ringtone last night. I suspect I did this because of the recent deletion of "Maps," and the fact that almost everyone in my phone book has one of two ringers, but I really need to watch that. Damn drunk dialing.
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...or not
So i'm not coming back to grand forks tonight. My parents sent the check today, which means i'll get it tomorrow afternoon which means i'll probably not be able to cash my check til monday. Which means i'm probably not coming into town anymore. I'm so furious that i'm having problems seeing straight. Only one group of people can consistantly frustrate and anger...
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cipher:
Those fuckers.
Would it make you feel any better to hear that I've got a long Friday night of nothing planned? Any?
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I'm heading home. Wasn't I just trying like hell to get out of Grand Forks and now i'm doing nearly everything humanly possibly to get back in? Food for thought...
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neodrunk:
sorry for not being so observant, cracka.

tonguemiao!!
cipher:
I really don't know how you think this correlates to the Brook situation, but there's really no danger of that. Worry not.
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neodrunk:
take pictures of my scrotum myself... hahahahahaha!!!

naive child.

tonguemiao!!
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Velvet Underground - Heroin

I dont know just where Im going
But Im gonna try for the kingdom, if I can
cause it makes me feel like Im a man
When I put a spike into my vein
And Ill tell ya, things arent quite the same
When Im rushing on my run
And I feel just like jesus son
And I guess that I...
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southernbelle:
Yep, us southern girls love our drinky drinks....wink
How was your weekend?
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16 tons and what do you get?

There is a bookstore off campus that also sells booze. I'm starting to like this town.
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Brief explanation of last update:

My parents are broke...very broke. So broke, in fact, that they had me pay their filing fee for bankrupsy last year in January. They and we always fight about money. Money is a reason why they wouldn't help me buy a car, money was the reason I couldn't go to LSU, and money is why I couldn't go to U...
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judas:
i want to stay as far from food service type stuff as possible. i really don't want to do anything conventional, but i need to find a way to make something non-conventional lucrative.

i want to travel and write. and make money doing it. there's a way, i know...

the crown sounds dangerous, and i think i have more frequently seen that purple bag used for makeup, actually.
judas:
i'm kind of a dewar's on the rocks kind of girl. the only thing i'll sully with coke is southern comfort.