tailofdogma

My week can be summed up by two A Perfect Circle songs/lyrics, both off of the album "Thirteenth Step."

Song 1: The Noose:

So glad to see you have
Overcome them, completely silent now
Without himself
You cast your demons out
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you off your cloud
But I'm more than just curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

Recall the deeds as if
They're all someone else's
Atrocious stories
Now you stand reborn before us all
So glad to see you well

And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more than just curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

With your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down [repeated]

Your halo slipping down to choke you now

Second Song: Weak and Powerless

Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so

Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you

Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I approach the bottom

Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you

Pale angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear of what you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so

Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you

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I'm so tired, i'm so overly emotional right nowthat i swear that i may in fact me menstrating. I go home tomorrow and i need to do a few things:

1). interact with people, in person
2). be someone's cuddle-slut
3). buy new shoes and get a few books
4). bring my vaccum back to Valley City
and if at all possible
5). get laid, and if necessary call the ex-girlfriend for this purpose.

all i do all day and night is be on my laptop, on MSN, and checking back everyonce and a while to see if i got an email from my professors. and I'd go out tonight and socialize but everyone from the floor is gone. Like i missed a memo or something. How can I approach nearly any situation in Grand Forks with no problems whatsoever and talk to anyone, but here i completely close up and can't talk to anyone? It's really REALLY disturbing me and I can't take it. I need to go home to feel better otherwise i'm probably going to crack.

There is no reason why anyone should miss Grand Forks, and yet I've been looking forward to the trip since Wednesday. Something about that truly isn't right. I fear that i'm going to be that roommate that doesn't leave his room...ever. Or if he does it's only to relieve himself and get a beer to bring back to the room.