Have you ever joined anything and it feels like you're still not part of it? No matter how hard you try? There's just this nagging feeling that people wish you weren't there, like you're infringing on their territory or something.
LMAO I've always been an outcast among the outcasts. There are perks, yes, but there's also a lot of frustration that comes with it as well. What can you do, right? I've learned to live with it, but it doesn't mean I understand it.