egostang's journal got me going (not her fault) and so here I go....place your seat in the full and upright position, please secure all tray tables.....

1999 was a good and bad year, greatest love of my life and the most horrible relationship (until Nov. 2001) ever.....all wrapped up together. I was completely and utterly in love...so much so that I forgive a horrible sin to keep her....which made me weak. Since 1999 I havent felt those emotions. I have dated some very beautiful and interesting people in the last 6 years, but no one has made my eyes light up like that. I got to a point where I thought I was incapable of loving again....some deep psychological problem that would not allow me to open up emotionally. Since then I have dated girls that I would have killed to have before 1999, girls that were not only beautiful, but smart, funny, sexy, ambitious and most of all interesting. Absolute wonderful people....yet I could have none for myself...because that one little thing that "clicks" wasnt there...it seems in order for me to feel that again will take an act of God or some really good fucking timing.

P.S. I secretly want to be a Pirate