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another night...

i feel like i'm all off track. i guess i'm not because it seems i'm getting closer to where i'm going, i guess i just don't know where that is. the more the days and nights blur together the more i feel like i'm not getting out enough, like i'm not experiencing enough. who knows where i'm going with this...

today i recieved an invitation to my five year high school reunion.

it's a pool party being held at someone's house in which i'd be charged $10 a person to go. as if this weren't disturbing enough, the invitation actually includes the line, "you're welcome to bring your children."

i shit you not, this is not a joke - our class song was "free bird"...
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i'm bored out of my mind! it seems like i've spent the last few days doing nothing and it's starting to drive me crazy. it's reached a point in which the highlight of my week is going to work...and i don't care much for going to work, either.

all i seem to do is waste time at home doing absolutely nothing. i'm sure i could...
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solitude's greatest fan

there's something comforting about silence. maybe the constant bombardment of sound is getting to me, i don't know. it used to be that when there was no noise i'd get caught up in thoughts i was trying to avoid, and maybe that will come back. now it seems like the busier it is the more caught up i get in my own...
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streetlights and shadows fill empty evenings.

i forgot how much i like downtown on summer evenings - the navy sky and the orange tinted reflections on the pavement. crowds sound far more interesting from a distance, just far enough to not know what the voices are saying. the distance lets you make up your own story, your own dialogue fills the mouths of people you've...
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i'm tired tonight...

to the point where my arms and legs don't feel attached to my body and it seems that i'm looking at the world through a window. i'm almost completely disconnected from the things around me.

i'm not sure what the deal is, it's not that late.

i don't think i'd mind that much if my mind could focus and enjoy the strange,...
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So, this is my first entry on suicidegirls.com. I love this site!!!

Well, as soon as I have more I time I'll actually post something in-depth...