tactical

I am rough on things

people (although most people deserve it), my gear, my weapons, pretty much everything, I push until it breaks, get it fixed or replace it only to do it all over again. It is not a good cycle but its how it is, its how I am.

I do not trust or count on anyone, people will always let you down, the only person I can count on to never let me down is me. I am usually pretty good at making people think I trust them but I don't not completely anyway, its all an act, part of the public face I put on.

The concert last night was amazing, great show. There were all these people with absolutely no rhythm convulsing, spasming, and generally looking like they were having seizures, it made me wonder what they were hearing/listening to. It started out being funny but by the end it got kinda irritating.

They gave us this bag and a signed tour poster when we got in for the sound check. It is way too small for me, it looks like a purse lol so I will probably end up giving that away, although I have no idea as to who I will give it to. I am sure I will ruin the poster too with all the moving I do.

This weekend has been really good, a step in the right direction, back to (my) normal.