i can't say this anywhere else.
i miss sam.
life was good then. i'm trying to be stronger, but every time i think i'm okay, and i'm a better person, it's like someone takes a bat to the back of my knees and i fall down again. hard.
i'm addicted and there's no rehab.
we had too many plans. the met. mets games. an apartment. dinosaur watching. i'm not ready to let go. yeah, i've been with someone else. but the whole time i thought about you, how disgusting is that?
i've been so easy to elt go and move on. not this time.
i lost my soulmate.
i miss sam.
life was good then. i'm trying to be stronger, but every time i think i'm okay, and i'm a better person, it's like someone takes a bat to the back of my knees and i fall down again. hard.
i'm addicted and there's no rehab.
we had too many plans. the met. mets games. an apartment. dinosaur watching. i'm not ready to let go. yeah, i've been with someone else. but the whole time i thought about you, how disgusting is that?
i've been so easy to elt go and move on. not this time.
i lost my soulmate.
♥
They're like a ghost that haunts me...disappearing and reappearing as they please. Out of sight out of mind, and they come back and throw a wrench in the gears which fucks everything up. I've been with other people all the while thinking about her which isn't fair to myself nor them. I've come to find it becomes easier...and once the initial shock passes from realizing you've lost someone....it's easier to overcome. You're not alone.