SCATTERED THOUGHTS THIS THURSDAY MORNING...
...though it collided with the peak of when i call it "me time"...i only picked up the phone because i saw her name displayed on the answering device...and i really wanted to talk her...and tend to get a little bit unraveled when she doesn't text or call or anything...she's not my girlfriend, but we can talk to each other that way after weeks of silence because in some shape or form we tend to talk to each other that way...
...and i'm tired and i want to go to bed and i want to e-mail this girl of the past who now lives in california...she has been friendly lately after ten years of no talk...no kids, no hubbies or ex-boyfriends or girlfriends to talk about on that note...and i really respect for that fact in all sorts of ways...
...and really...haven't been able to put my mind to rest for the last few months...
...finally decided on getting that surgery done to have my deviated septum corrected after twenty some years of crooked nostrils and not breathing right...
...sort of strange, because, as much as i hate hospitals and anything dealing with surgery...i'm sort of dealing with my worse fear and dread all at once: PAIN!
...then again...
...i will feel a lot more confident after sex...
...was she screaming about the pleasure i gave her or that scary monster of "a nose"?
...though it collided with the peak of when i call it "me time"...i only picked up the phone because i saw her name displayed on the answering device...and i really wanted to talk her...and tend to get a little bit unraveled when she doesn't text or call or anything...she's not my girlfriend, but we can talk to each other that way after weeks of silence because in some shape or form we tend to talk to each other that way...
...and i'm tired and i want to go to bed and i want to e-mail this girl of the past who now lives in california...she has been friendly lately after ten years of no talk...no kids, no hubbies or ex-boyfriends or girlfriends to talk about on that note...and i really respect for that fact in all sorts of ways...
...and really...haven't been able to put my mind to rest for the last few months...
...finally decided on getting that surgery done to have my deviated septum corrected after twenty some years of crooked nostrils and not breathing right...
...sort of strange, because, as much as i hate hospitals and anything dealing with surgery...i'm sort of dealing with my worse fear and dread all at once: PAIN!
...then again...
...i will feel a lot more confident after sex...
...was she screaming about the pleasure i gave her or that scary monster of "a nose"?