MOST CRIPPLING DAY FOR ME...
...Had to dispose of a "friend" today and it was her girlfriend's word against mine. But, her girlfriend seems to hate me and despises me and is jealous of me and i don't know why...
...and as i am sort of at the low end of the totem pole when it comes to my own life...I am tired of just giving. Gave this girl rides...gave this girl money when in need...even gave this girl the time of the day over other dates and things that could have been happening....
....and that seems to be my problem these days...i give out my heart because it's sensible....i know what abuse is and when i see someone in the same situation, I know where they've been and it tends to make me mad.. Hate to see adults take the smile away from young girls faces over their own sick means...
...but, you can only give so much before you feel taken, stolen and yet again abused by your own wisdom...
...and today this egg was cracked....that bird flew away for the first worm it could attack. And I was somewhere in between and my friendship was taken for granted...THESE ARE THE BLACKER DAYS FOR ME. PERIOD, PERIOD, PERIOD. Feel a little bit like Morrissey: I am hated for loving.
...Had to dispose of a "friend" today and it was her girlfriend's word against mine. But, her girlfriend seems to hate me and despises me and is jealous of me and i don't know why...
...and as i am sort of at the low end of the totem pole when it comes to my own life...I am tired of just giving. Gave this girl rides...gave this girl money when in need...even gave this girl the time of the day over other dates and things that could have been happening....
....and that seems to be my problem these days...i give out my heart because it's sensible....i know what abuse is and when i see someone in the same situation, I know where they've been and it tends to make me mad.. Hate to see adults take the smile away from young girls faces over their own sick means...
...but, you can only give so much before you feel taken, stolen and yet again abused by your own wisdom...
...and today this egg was cracked....that bird flew away for the first worm it could attack. And I was somewhere in between and my friendship was taken for granted...THESE ARE THE BLACKER DAYS FOR ME. PERIOD, PERIOD, PERIOD. Feel a little bit like Morrissey: I am hated for loving.