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If somone can tell me how long it takes for the shock to wear off, Ill post pretty pictures.
No speculation. I want facts supported with verifiable scientific studies.

Moving is much like my mood. Up and down and in and out. Not allways in that order.
Its fun for periods of time. Then I have to take a break or the magnitude of it all will overwhelm me.
Im still in shock....
The shock seems to have factory defects in the outer shell, though. which allow fragments of reality to seep in.
My...
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Its strange how social ideology influence a person. The ties that bind, fashioned not unlike a noose around my innocent neck.
So much time spent unraveling the series of complex knots and I still find traces of their influence on my proverbial skin.
Ive just made one of the most important choices I will ever make. I handled it better than I would ever have...
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If the universe had any love for me at all, it would have made me a lesbian.

This just in. I am a selfish bitch with serious problems with emotional intimacy. Lets have a show of hands for those who are surprised by this.
*crickets chirping*
Every time somone tries to get close to me emotionally I run. I push them away. I do so without even realizing it.
I used to do it out of fear or being hurt.
Now I...
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A note to all who read this...but are too damn cheap to get accounts.
All things left at my current "home" need to be picked up in the next 2 months. Following that I cannot guarantee their safety.
This includes, but is not limited to:
Incriminating legal documents, furniture, pornographic pictures taken while you were under the influence, the Iran Contra diary, liquour of any...
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Everyone in my life is convinced I need to get married. Its dificult to pin me emotionally...after so many bad relationship experiances (and I dont refer to only sexual relationships) even monogamy is allmost too much to ask for from me.
If I consent to monogamy...should that not be enough?

People will generally only suggest going to a movie that they want to see. Last night, Somone suggested we see Memoirs of a Geisha because I wanted to see it.
Somone with the patience of a saint. And more genuine understanding than I have seen in any human animal.
Everything in my past has taught me not to get attached. For any reason. Ever.
And...
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I fucking hate cars. It is my dream to live withing walking/biking distance of all that I need to get to on a regular basis, that I may never worry about having a functional car again. No expensive gas to buy, no maintainance to deal with, no car insurance raping my pocketbook,zero emissions to distroy my planet.
Rumours of my current "feelings" for another will...
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*And the problem with you never being home and leaving your account logged into is I finally get to tell you somthing that everyone else seems to know except you.
YOU ARE IN LOVE!
Think about it. When was the last time you didnt turn down romance with somone else?
I dont care if you are mad at me for writing in your journal because...
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