syrvyxyn

I am painfully broke...its a good thing I love what I do or I would be miserable living at work for the next 6 months.
There are far too many people who want more than I can give them.
What to do what to do?
I say time and time again. My heart, in all its fragmented glory, will be prize to whomever can manage to break through all of my bullshit and be standing on the wrong side of all of my walls without making me feel cornered or violated. Most people dont even know where or what my defenses consist of...allmost no one has the ability to accomplish such a daunting task.
Somone is standing on the wrong side of all of my walls. Suddenly the bullshit doesnt matter.
Somone understands, and I didnt even have to explain.
Somone....really listened to my fragmented pieces, and saw them not as a broken whole but pieces beautifull in their own right.
I thought that somone would be a woman.
How many times can I be wrong?
Shit.
I rather like being free. Not having to worry about offending another or being monogamous. No opression. No missed opportunities. No feeling lost when things dont work out.
So what to do when somone I care for deeply wants monogamy...not because he wants sole rights to my body and mind...but because my company makes his heart sing?
A duet the likes of which the divine could only concieve of...
But I like polyamory! *stomps her foot* Karma free, commitement free sex is fun.
How does one find freedom in a commited monogamous relationship?
I thought men were supposed to be the ones who didnt want commitment?
Addendum:Message me when you see this. The furniture is all ready for pick up whenever you are.