synyster_uk

Words cant describe what i am feeling today. My grandmother passed away from a fall down the stairs this morning, i am totally devastated she was one of the two remaining family members that i had left. I cant help but think that if i had gone round earlier this may not have happened. I have nobody to turn to for comfort and i dont know how to deal with the way i am feeling.

I have spent so much of my time concentrating on working that i have neglected to find someone special to spend my time with and that is now aparent in the fact that im actually on here typing this on my own.

I think i need to cange my path in life but until i can get rid of this feeling inside i dont think i will be able to change anything. I now have to sort yet another funeral out on my own and i really dont think i can deal with it this time.

Sorry for bumming you all out with this i just had no place else to turn.