[worry]
I was so excited to get back to class today after the break, but then I realized I am still having some major doubts about my career choice. How the hell am I going to succeed in this business? How will I pay back these loans? How much further in debt can I get before I can bring myself to actually pull myself out of this hole and graduate?
How will I be able to bring myself to get up at 6:30 in the fucking morning every Monday and Wednesday for the next five months? Yikes.
[/worry]
Who the fuck knows? I really don't, but I guess I am doing what I love and that is what is really important. I just wish I had some confirmation on how good I actually am at it. But whatever...
I think I need to move out of this country. I've always wanted to live in Ireland; it's just not a very smart move for me right now.
I want to write this book. I really do. Please, supernatural-being-in-the-sky (even though I don't believe a single goddamned word anyone says about you), don't let me give up on this.
Oh, and I'm getting a hedgehog this week. Pictures will follow when he arrives.
Gia's going to be so happy.
P.S. Our two year anniversary is coming up. I want to take her out to dinner, but I'd like to do something else that's... romantic... Any ideas would be wonderful, because I suck at this.
I was so excited to get back to class today after the break, but then I realized I am still having some major doubts about my career choice. How the hell am I going to succeed in this business? How will I pay back these loans? How much further in debt can I get before I can bring myself to actually pull myself out of this hole and graduate?
How will I be able to bring myself to get up at 6:30 in the fucking morning every Monday and Wednesday for the next five months? Yikes.
[/worry]
Who the fuck knows? I really don't, but I guess I am doing what I love and that is what is really important. I just wish I had some confirmation on how good I actually am at it. But whatever...
I think I need to move out of this country. I've always wanted to live in Ireland; it's just not a very smart move for me right now.
I want to write this book. I really do. Please, supernatural-being-in-the-sky (even though I don't believe a single goddamned word anyone says about you), don't let me give up on this.
Oh, and I'm getting a hedgehog this week. Pictures will follow when he arrives.
Gia's going to be so happy.
P.S. Our two year anniversary is coming up. I want to take her out to dinner, but I'd like to do something else that's... romantic... Any ideas would be wonderful, because I suck at this.