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Tuesday Aug 09, 2005

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work was hard and stressful but still kind of fun in a sick way... i am watching a lot of simpsons recently. that may seem trivial, but i usually watch a lot of simpsons during certain phases, i think when i'm depressed or coming out of a depression...i have not had a cigarette/clove in over 48 hours.



update: aug 10

still no smokes. i might be quitting. it's really hard after meals and when i'm driving and when i'm sitting home alone/bored and when i'm waiting for something and with coffee in the morning and...damn i was really relying on smokes for a lot. it's probably time though. i don't feel the finality like when i said goodbye to other habits so i'm afraid it might come back ( i recently quit for four plus months and picked it up again, only this time with cloves)

any ex-smokers in the house?

i also quit cable like seven months ago and am semi cheating because i got an antenna so now i can pick up some stations to watch the simpsons, jeopardy, the news, etc. and i was watching tv shows on dvd the whole time anyway (south park, curb your enthusiasm, simpsons, world poker tour, etc.)

any ex-cable people in the house? does watching shows on dvd or getting an antenna for bad reception on channels 2-13 count?

i don't know what i'm counting or trying to prove, i just know i'm trying to rid myself of things i don't like (i.e. commercials, slothiness, bad health)...i also have lived without tv before, a year at one place, a few months at another...lotta movie watching though...


update: aug 11

i rented 4 movies, bought two packs of gum (that i havent opened yet) and am fucking falling apart
candycox:
I'm an ex-TV junkie... TV = bad!! My roommate and I don't even have it anymore... we just watch movies now. TV sucks anyways...

Good luck trying to quit smoking - hard to do from what I hear. I smoke occassionally (usually when drunk), but I never really got into it. Good for you though - smoking is a nasty habit.

xoxo, CC

[Edited on Aug 11, 2005 2:06PM]
Aug 11, 2005
candycox:
hey don't ever apologize for a "long" comment. I like hearing from you, and I understand what you mean. Just as you can't understand how some people only occasionally smoke, I personally never understand how people get addicted to cigarettes... obviously people get stuck physically, but I don't enjoy cigarettes enough to constantly be smoking them. They taste bad, they smell bad, they do nasty shit to you... I don't get a real high off of them.

But for some reason I find people who smoke cigarettes very attractive... and they do relax me when I'm particularly stressed. That's why I usually only smoke when I drink... plus, I like the whole "process" or act of smoking. It's calming.

Anyways, I'm rambling cuz I'm high. I don't even know if I'm making sense, I'm that fucked up. Why the fuck am I on SG when I'm this fucked up?? Cuz this site is addictive to me like crack. This is my weakness... haha.

Sigh. It's times like this that I wish I actually knew you and not just the "internet" you. A lot of people I've met on here are so cool, but I don't really know them, you know? I've only met one person off of this site.

As for weed, I always say that I'm gonna give it up one day... but I never really do. It makes me feel too damn good. I don't feel guilty about it at all. tongue

by the way, what's your real name?

my name's Kit.



[Edited on Aug 11, 2005 10:26PM]
Aug 11, 2005

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