symbidium

I saw a car crash today.

I could see from my window that she was dead.

Such colours and noises.

Red blood
Yellow street lamps
Blue flashing lights
Green uniforms.
Sirens, shouts, wails, horns, radios, alarms.

And behind them, a little girl huddled on the pavement, weeping,
Her tears smearing the blood on her face.

"Nice legs da'lin"
I pretended I couldnt hear him over my ipod. I'd just slung on my coat over a short slummy skirt and N's t-shirt to go to the supermarket, and this guy feels compelled to yell at me from his car window. Why? Why on earth do men do this? I really dont understand. Do they think we're going to turn round and...
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Lectures started for real again today. As with each new academic year, I've spent more time organising my folders and papers than actually reading the course books. Thank god there's only one more year of this.

I'm seeing a little more of N at the moment, cos he's beaten the PS3 game he'd been playing for the past week, and I actually had tea and...
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So people who were born in 1990 are starting uni now! 1990 was NOT THAT LONG AGO! Why are these people 18 already??

It was strange seeing all the students coming back, I feel kind of detached from that world for the moment. Surrounded by it, but not part of it. I've been working so much recently, i've forgotten what it's like to be a...
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I hate freshers. I swear I was never so dippy when I was new at uni. And the freebies this year at the fairs were crap!

Got N a PS3 today, so we went out this afternoon and bought a HD TV to play it on. Im not going to see him for the rest of the week at least...He's sitting there as I type...
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I cycled 6 miles today, and did a two hour session of rollerskating, felt tired but fit, and stopped at Tescos on the way home to enjoy a packet of pork scratchings and a choccy bar! Healthy? maybe not, Delicious? definately!

Ugh, I feel like shit at the moment. Modelling is good and all, but its so bitchy. And not from other models. its the photographers! One is currently bitching about me in a model site forum, cos I wouldnt work to his levels for half pay. He's a newbie, he has two photos on his portfolio! Im not good at ignoring people when they're being...
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Woohoo, I'm in the money!
Just got nearly 600 for a two day shoot. Not bad! Tired today though.

I was coming back home on the train late last night, and I put my head down on the table to catch a bit of sleep, and I saw the girl in the window do the same. I put my nose right up to hers, and...
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Remember a few posts ago I mentioned my american ex boyfriend, who was about to set off on the "trip of a lifetime" teaching English around the world with his girlfriend? And I was debating whether to tell him he was woefully underprepared, underfunded and disillusioned? Well, in the end I decided to leave things be, we learn from our own mistakes. And it looks...
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My computer is making noises like its going to explode. The fan is whirring louder and louder, Im gonna need a new laptop soon. Bummer

Im also happy cos i've just scrabbled together the last months rent I'm going to have to pay for about 9 months. Once N gets his paycheck at the end of Sept, RENT'S ON HIM!! Way! (bout time too )...
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