syloken

do you care that everytime you come into my mind I have such an enourmous need to see you once again? That it breaks my heart when you tell me that you care. I am so full of love for you that I want to cry when I see your name, when I remember your laugh, when I think of the time spent with eachother....
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so i went to the doctor on tuesday. she was really nice and the office was great to. other than the fact that i was there for an hour and a half it was a great experience.

i went because i havent been getting very good sleep and i think i have ppd... so i went and she asked all the questions she asks. and...
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life..... is good.

i might actually be able to get a job soon... actually i know i will be able to get a job soon! YAY!

too happy!

I just want to work and get my son the things he needs and the things I want to give him for xmas!

thank you God!

Have you ever wanted to just start over...
just wanted to start a life and be WHATEVER you want!

Im there.

I want to be a Soldier.
I want to provide for my son without the help of others.
I want to be on my own again.

I dont need a man, I may want one (one in paticular)...
but I dont NEED one.

I...
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There once was a girl named Rue.

She was the ugly duckling growing up, never felt like she was like all the others out there.

Then slowly she began to bloom like a stunning sunrise in the distance you could feel the warmth of her beauty and love just looking on her.

Then she suddenly felt a need and became like a wild fire in...
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Exs suck so bad...

especially when they call you outta the blue and tell you they are moving four hours away from you and they talk about visiting. I mean I doubt he will visit, but wtf. Why fuck with my heart like that? And what if he does visit OMG thats gonna hurt so bad.

The situation distresses me so badly

blargh.....

okay random... i know but...
ive decided that i am going to get ass implants...
Im tired of having a flat ass and no hips...
Im so top heavy its not right!

Do you think I could get like a b cup in my ass...
LoL Ill just tell the doc to even me out...
take some outta the top,
and put it in...
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okay so im uber effin irritatted...

im going crazy... i love being a mom...

i know i need a flippin job tho. and i just dont want anyone watching my son. I dont want anyone else to see his milestones... i want to be there for everything. Hes such an amazing baby. This shit is driving me CRAZY!

So ... I gotta get outta this house tho... I need to get...
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