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Monday Apr 07, 2008

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I feel like hiding from the world.



Last night after a really lovely day going to brunch on Alki and vintage store shopping, Niko and I went to go see the movie Juno. It was super cute. I even cried. Ugh.

On the drive home, inexplicably, my mood changed from whimsy to utter sadness and I began sobbing and didn't stop for 2 hours. I can't believe I broke down in front of him.

My crisis of faith is torturing me. It dries out my mouth and brings tears to my eyes. i am searching for a purpose, I need to know.....something. I am missing a piece of my heart.

Though some of you may be convinced there is or isn't a god, I lay utterly confused. I want there to be. I want to know I have a purpose, that all I love and cherish is not in vain. That striving to be a good honest person is not in vain.

It's all so utterly fucked up right now. At least he held me as I wept.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
alyk:
We're upgrading servers, so shit is all wonky.

I don't know what to do with myself when I can't discuss Miley Cyrus' gas face!
Apr 7, 2008
alyk:
I left links to a crazy french movie in Cocoabutter's journal last night. You should watch it!

It's bananas.
Apr 7, 2008

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