sydni

My throat is trying to have the plague. DO NOT WANT.

I'm such a little baby when I'm sick. I think it's the worst part of being sick, because I feel all needy and I want Niko to drop everything and spoon feed me soup, watch bad movies with me and cuddle.

I didn't really talk to him today until 20 minutes ago, and I think I bummed him out with my sick whininess. I couldn't help it, and he got off the phone with me pretty quickly. Now I feel like shit and even more pathetic than I did before. This is rickockulous. I want to be optimistic, but I'm sleepy and my throat is angry.

Also, work has been slow, and I've had to do a lot of work for my troupe recently, that hasn't necessarily paid off yet....the price of being a performer I guess.

I've been around here a lot less, lately, I guess I don't really feel like I belong on this site, maybe not so much a model. I haven't shot since my last rejection:



In all honesty, not sure if my look works on here. sure, I'm a good looking girl and all, but perhaps I'm not tattooed enough or on the other side, American Apparel looking enough. You know what I mean.

I feel bad not commenting enough on all ya'lls journals....I do read them. I guess I just don't feel up to the challenge of being a clever poster.

Right now, I think the universe is trying to tell me something and I can't figure out what it is. I don't like that at all. Maybe that's why teh sick is coming on.

Here's some pictures of my marilyn act and my playboy bunny/ carrot act....you know, to round things off with pretty pictures.









Edit: I just sent some photos to some UK plus size modeling agencies. Wish me luck!

xoxo
Sydni