sybil

at the very mention of his name
i fell apart, i'm back to half a year ago
he wants to come down for all the wrong reasons
word is he's seeing some girl
with a fake tan and blonde hair
a girl of low intelligence, fake
what happend to what we couldn't have
because he was still in love with the
"love of his life"
i don't deserve this, no one does
does she get drunk and beg to spend the rest of her life with you?
do tears run down her face when she looks you in the eyes
and knows deep down she'll never have you?
and do you wipe those tears away?
do you defend her when she gets out control from whiskey?
does she lick your wounds when you get out of control from whiskey?
i may have found a new happiness
someone to love me
but no one can replace the bond we had
and the moments
the alcoholic sick moments
the sober sweet moments
sometimes love is a happy walk in the park
and sometimes its an addictive roller coaster
that makes you feel more alive than any drug.
i can tell myself i'm over it, that i'm so happy
but why do i still call out for you in my dreams?