Saturday Aug 25, 2007

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I wish I were better at making friends. I don't like being scared when I'm around people, which I am. I also don't like feeling standoffish when I'm not terrified. There is no happy medium; either I'm myself, and I scare everyone away, or I put up this silly facade, whether it be dipped in sarcasm or covered in a cloak of anti sociality. I suppose they never said it was easy...but everyone else seems to be able to do this just fine. I am so stuck. I love the friends I have, don't get me wrong, but it just occurred to me that all of my best friends have other friends too...and I just don't. Outside of our tiny gathering, I'm alone, and this world is way bigger than Vvardenfell. When the group scatters, I find myself standing, looking at my shadow, picking up the pieces. Have a good night, sorry I'm not good enough for your elitist friends. And I try to be a good friend; I really do. I try to be dependable and caring, there for those who have nobody else to turn to. I'm not an elitist... but everyone else is. How on earth I manage to socialize at all with some of these people is beyond me. I guess it's because I'm desperate for friendship. Does that make me less cool?
autumnfade:
no,
only human
-peace wink
raziel666:
Always be yourself,no matter how hard it is at times.You do have freinds.as you said,who told you you ahve tons of them?Like the person said before me,you are human.I bet even those you believe have alot of friends feel the same one time or another,we all do.Keep the walls down and your mind open and see with your heart.To find one thing that you can relate to someone else and go ffrom there to 'socialize',don't stress if it takes time to learn this.I don't know you,but I can tell you are alot braver and stronger that you let on tyo yourself.I hope this helps you and you understand what I wrote.If not I can expalin better for you.Have agreat day,my friend.

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