Tonight i got pissed off and took a good drink and think. All my life i have been bouncing around. Weather it has been between homes, states, or even countries. I have never found ANYTHING that truly makes me happy. How, in my 34 years, have i not found anything? What am i looking for that so pristine that i can waste away my life looking for it?
Tonight i thought about the women on my life and why i had to have them. why i had to make them apart of this tragedy. Greed.... It was always about me and what i thought i needed to feel fulfilled. Now, that i look back, I see that none of them are what could bring me happiness. That is what i wanted all this time. That is what i have been searching for. happiness..... I realize now i can only find it inside myself... but how??? Where do i look??? I do not know myself. Now, i wish i did.
I put this out there, in the world of SG, to find some wisdom. The wisdom i can not find within myself.
