(I have have to have 2 messenger chats. One for-evil girls chat and one for-good girls chat because you can’t have these types in the same room. In the evil chat, all of the girls are very adamant about how I will never marry a Suicide Girl. In the good chat there are girls who “get” me and say maybe I will. There is a guy in the evil chat who got kicked out of the good chat who says that the good chat has evil people and that the evil chat has good people. The evil chat got these pictures when I was explaining I know tantra and they said, “No, you don’t!”)
Most of my friends except for maybe three all think like Suicide Girls is like a conspiracy to take boys money and they are convinced that girls are conspiring to get my money in order to see exclusive content. But I do NOT think it is an elaborate conspiracy! The way I perceive Suicide Girls is for me, I think many girls really do want to be my friend because I believe that I am very awesome and I am romantic and I am cool!
But they don’t seem to understand that naked women are humans too. Even the girls who are close friends with a cam girl who Might also be an SG model who knows me and she is good to me too are determined to teach me that Suicide Girls is an evil conspiracy... the girls who are friends with the better friend who let me know say no...
I could not convince them that nude models should not make money, but I have been able to successfully equate Suicide Girls to how Church works. To my friends, they do not think people should give naked girls money for being nude models to them in the same way that they say people should not give church money for being role models to them. But then I explained how my 10% goes to church and that I would give church more of my income than Suicide Girls.
And I said my tithe has taught to think of money differently. In my mind money is not something that you have to hold onto with greedy fingers. In my mind, money is ‘this is for what I value.’ I think I have them on the the idea that they should honor what you value with their money. Just teaching a lesson. I have intense symptoms of educated and well-managed schizophrenia. My disability SSI income is only $611 a month and I need to think smart because I am only safe with my argument as long as I don’t give naked girls more than the 10% I give to church.
