swindy

Today I saw a message written on a wall it read:

"I am just one man"

I stared at it for a few minutes.

I took my marker out of my pocket an I responded,

"With an attitude like that, you will never do or be anyone worth remembering."

Although I wrote that, I had the sudden feeling that as much as I want to be the person someone will admire, look up to, and truely be something or someone fantastic. I just am not that person, I try to do my best at work but it is over looked, I lead by example but no one notices, I want to reach out and strangle each and every last one of them.

I feel invisiable when I want to be seen, and when I want to hide I am in the spotlight. I am boring, I cant seem to get out of this rut.

Toby Keith says it for me.

She said, "ive seen you in here before."
I said, "Ive been here at ime or two."
She said, "Hello, my name is bobby jo
meet my twin sister Better Lou
and we're both feeling kinda wild tonight
and you're the only cowboy in this place
and if you're up for a rodeo
we'll put a big Texas smile on
your face"
i said, "Girls,"

[Chorus]
i aint as good as i once was
i got a few years on me now
but there was a time back in my prime

when i could really lay it down
and if you need some love tonight
then i might have just enough
i aint as good as i once was
but im as good once as i ever was

i still hang out with my best friend dave
ive known him since we were kids at school
last night he
had a shots
got in a tight spot hustlin' a game of pool
with a couple of readneck boys
one great
big bad biker man
i heard David yell across the room

"hey buddy, how 'bout a helping hand."
i said, "Dave,"

[Chorus]
i aint as good as i once was
my how the years have flown
but there was a time back in my prime
when i could really hold my own
but if you wanna fight tonight
guess those boys dont look all that
tough
i aint as good as i once was
but im as good once as i ever was

i used to be hell on wheels
back when i was younger man
now my body says, "you cant do this boy"
but my pride says, "oh, yes you can

i aint as good as i once was
thats just the cold hard truth
i still throw a few back, talk a little smack
when im feelin bullet proof
so dont double dog dare me now
'cause id have to call your bluff

i aint as good as i once was
but im as good once as i ever was
maybe not be good as i once was
but im as good once as i ever was

Yep thats right I even started to listen to some country music, I feel too damn old maybe even useless. I think I let too much slip away from who I really am, and now i am just some grumpy asshole who doesnt have anything better to do.