swimforbrighter

i love show tunes lol this is possibly my theme song of life

to expand on things that make me happy:
jimmy fallon. he makes every night/day more awesome!
blasting the ramones and having a dance party at 1:30 am
seth meyers..................... *bites lip* enough said.
colin egglesfield.............. ... my my my lol
oranges!!
looking at funny cat pictures
wikipedia looking up lemurs/rota spain/insert weirdness here
conan obrien
flesh eating beatles
pink bows in my hair
when i...
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hey everyone! im havin a fantastic week so far! balanced and happy.. with bumps here and there but rightly so!

hope you guys are amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was amazing. i had a major milestone. i walked a mile in under 45 minutes!

i wont let this weekend suck. i wont let this weekend suck. i wont let this weekend suck...................

hey all <3 i had a pretty good day today. i did go to the gym though. that always makes me better.. more dr appointments tomorrow. ah the life of a Lauren...

so the thing i find the most comforting when i go through bad phases is that as time goes by things always change.. its like 'ok if i can just wait it out things are gonna change and get better.. as i told my friend 'its my sense of negative positivity'

i stayed in bed half a day yesterday and i felt slightly better the...
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its no secret im going through a rough patch.. i am asking the old question 'why is the world like this? why am i going through this?'

i just kinda feel abandoned. unloved. pissed off.

its not really one thing. mostly i am frustrated cause i ask myself 'what exactly is wrong or causing this?'
and i have yet to figure it out haha. earlier...
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natures first green is gold. her hardest hue to hold. her early leaves a flower but only so an hour. then leaf subsides to leaf so eden sank to greif down goes down today nothing gold can stay

i feel like the whole world is mad at me..... it was not a good day. at all. i feel sick. im miserable. depressed. anxious.. i feel like everything is falling apart. im gonna go to bed and just hide under my covers. :'(

i can already tell its gonna be a great day. this week has been awesome.. nothing bad happened lol. all good...

lets hope my weekend goes that way too..