swimforbrighter

my date last night went really well... other than i was so nervous i rambled the whole time.. i actually knew the guy my life but hadnt seen him in like 13 years. he's awesome and really sweet but he was prob the most enthusiastic guy ive ever known and he was really hot but adorable and hilarious.

i did learn im still not good with new people and im def looking forward to going out with him again so i can get used to being around him. ive def got a big crush though, first one since i met andrew so that feels .like a big deal. i thought id feel guilty but i just wanna be happy. i deserve to have a great guy thats sweet and likes me that lives near by.

I KNOW I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. and not with someone i think is awesome except (list annoying immature traits here)