so the thing i find the most comforting when i go through bad phases is that as time goes by things always change.. its like 'ok if i can just wait it out things are gonna change and get better.. as i told my friend 'its my sense of negative positivity'
i stayed in bed half a day yesterday and i felt slightly better the restr of the day............
there has been stuff that has slightly cheered me up...... my dog blazer, csi, criminal minds, flesh eating beatles on the show bones, thinkin about hippos, readin about lemurs.... im a simple
i have an appointment with my psychologist today and its next to my gym so im hoping today will make me as good as new. its comforting to be at my gym.. i feel like they understand that ive gone through a hard time and that ive fought through HELL to be where i am now.
it makes me feel useful to talk to people in pt there.. to explain that doctors prognosis of how far they will go means absolutely nothing and they should go 'ill show you!!!!' and work hard and they can make the doctors guesses that------- just guesses..
it feels good to be useful and it makes me think maybe ill change a life. bert mckracken from the used.. i saw them in concert 6 months after my accident and i was in a wheel chair but my mom had arranged somehow for a meet and greet.
bert asked if id ever walk again and i said we didnt know. he seemed pretty drunk but he went 'tell me youll never give up!!!!! tell me youll believe!!!!!!'
and as funny as that was it has stuck in my mind.. they were so sweet all hugs and excited to meet me for some reason..... apparently not many girls in wheelchairs obsess about getting to see one of their shows.
ive never given up.. tho ive been really close a few times.
i know its weird a crazy man like him would give me something to talk to people in pt about but it is good to be told to never give up lol.
lol i love bert so much lol... he rocks my fuckin socks off. and my world.. and my heart.. lol
i stayed in bed half a day yesterday and i felt slightly better the restr of the day............
there has been stuff that has slightly cheered me up...... my dog blazer, csi, criminal minds, flesh eating beatles on the show bones, thinkin about hippos, readin about lemurs.... im a simple
i have an appointment with my psychologist today and its next to my gym so im hoping today will make me as good as new. its comforting to be at my gym.. i feel like they understand that ive gone through a hard time and that ive fought through HELL to be where i am now.
it makes me feel useful to talk to people in pt there.. to explain that doctors prognosis of how far they will go means absolutely nothing and they should go 'ill show you!!!!' and work hard and they can make the doctors guesses that------- just guesses..
it feels good to be useful and it makes me think maybe ill change a life. bert mckracken from the used.. i saw them in concert 6 months after my accident and i was in a wheel chair but my mom had arranged somehow for a meet and greet.
bert asked if id ever walk again and i said we didnt know. he seemed pretty drunk but he went 'tell me youll never give up!!!!! tell me youll believe!!!!!!'
and as funny as that was it has stuck in my mind.. they were so sweet all hugs and excited to meet me for some reason..... apparently not many girls in wheelchairs obsess about getting to see one of their shows.
ive never given up.. tho ive been really close a few times.
i know its weird a crazy man like him would give me something to talk to people in pt about but it is good to be told to never give up lol.
lol i love bert so much lol... he rocks my fuckin socks off. and my world.. and my heart.. lol