swimforbrighter

its no secret im going through a rough patch.. i am asking the old question 'why is the world like this? why am i going through this?'

i just kinda feel abandoned. unloved. pissed off.

its not really one thing. mostly i am frustrated cause i ask myself 'what exactly is wrong or causing this?'
and i have yet to figure it out haha. earlier i was just laying curled up and i felt like i was trying to keep myself together and i just feel like no matter how or what i try i just feel every part of me breaking in pieces.

omg i dont know what id do without dashboard... chris carrabba you feel and sound like home.. its the most soothing comforting thing right now. he knows how to calm my soul.....

i have lost interest in almost everything but they say exercise is really good for depression.. so im going to the gym and just wanna make some kind of fuckin progress................