Tuesday Apr 10, 2012

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hey everyone! im havin a fantastic week so far! balanced and happy.. with bumps here and there but rightly so!

hope you guys are amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kiss skull love
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beejai:
Oh, I'm amazing alright. Happy hump day.
blackheartdown:
You should be excited about the computer (Bummed about the money). smile

Friday Apr 06, 2012

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today was amazing. i had a major milestone. i walked a mile in under 45 minutes!

i wont let this weekend suck. i wont let this weekend suck. i wont let this weekend suck...................
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blackheartdown:
Keep it up girl! smile
fimbis:
Good for you!!!! smile

Tuesday Apr 03, 2012

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hey all <3 i had a pretty good day today. i did go to the gym though. that always makes me better.. more dr appointments tomorrow. ah the life of a Lauren... love
leftyanasazi:
does exercise help with your chronic pain issues? i have some of my own, and i'm thinking about trying to work out more...

Tuesday Apr 03, 2012

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so the thing i find the most comforting when i go through bad phases is that as time goes by things always change.. its like 'ok if i can just wait it out things are gonna change and get better.. as i told my friend 'its my sense of negative positivity'

i stayed in bed half a day yesterday and i felt slightly better the...
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Sunday Apr 01, 2012

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its no secret im going through a rough patch.. i am asking the old question 'why is the world like this? why am i going through this?'

i just kinda feel abandoned. unloved. pissed off.

its not really one thing. mostly i am frustrated cause i ask myself 'what exactly is wrong or causing this?'
and i have yet to figure it out haha. earlier...
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blackheartdown:
Those days really are a drag. Just remember the universe is probably not against you.
leftyanasazi:
i feel the same way, but talking to you helped a lot.smile

i don't know a lot about dashboard, but the song "ghost of a good thing" used to be one of my favorites when i was feeling bad.

Saturday Mar 31, 2012

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natures first green is gold. her hardest hue to hold. her early leaves a flower but only so an hour. then leaf subsides to leaf so eden sank to greif down goes down today nothing gold can stay
entese:
smile
beejai:
kiss

Saturday Mar 31, 2012

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i feel like the whole world is mad at me..... it was not a good day. at all. i feel sick. im miserable. depressed. anxious.. i feel like everything is falling apart. im gonna go to bed and just hide under my covers. :'( frown
lectorvyal:
*hugs* frown
mdw:
Hey I heard there was some hugging goin on in here... don't be stingy.

Saturday Mar 31, 2012

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i can already tell its gonna be a great day. smile this week has been awesome.. nothing bad happened lol. all good...

lets hope my weekend goes that way too..
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calvaria:
Aww yay! :-D
blackheartdown:
Super weekend MUST top off awesome weekend, it's the nature of things.

Wednesday Mar 28, 2012

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i think ive thought about a tattoo i want... just black and in cursive 'i fought a war to walk a gangplank'

its from a beautiful jacks mannequin song called caves thats about his battle with cancer..
some of you know stuff about me and my car accident and the line is about fighting through all of it and then the gangplank is being 22...
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calvaria:
That's a really cool idea! smile Just make sure you find an artist that can do fine line script like that. It is an easy tattoo to screw up. :/
inkedgeek:
Just saw where you joined Bi-Boys...interesting. wink

Tuesday Mar 27, 2012

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hey yall !
my week has been pretty good. ive been busy which always puts me in a good mood.. it allows me to close my ears and not hear what anyone says. but really havent encountered any negativity from outside sources which is amazing.
i spend a lot of time thinking about how thankful i am as hokey as some think that says i...
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calvaria:
Yay! Glad to know you're happy! smile busy is good. Slow is sad.
blackheartdown:
You have a lot of people that say a lot of negative things to/about you. I say edge them out of your life if possible.

Sunday Mar 25, 2012

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haha i had two sorta down days in a row but im determined to have a good week. im just gonna let bad stuff roll off my back this week seriously i just dont have it in me to give a fuckin fuck fuck shocked
lectorvyal:
*tickles*
inkedgeek:
I have a feeling your week will be Awesome! biggrin

Saturday Mar 24, 2012

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i dont know why. maybe its my bipolar. but everyday is either really good or really bad. i really cant (as much as i try) to figure out my triggers. maybe i should just lock myself in my room and listen to the band say anything on blast a long time.
theres a good part of my day. i always try to pick something to...
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blackheartdown:
I can always find music to lift my mood. Maybe a guy thing, and maybe not your cup o' tea, but the song "Best Day Til' Tomorrow" from the Scot-Canadian celt-punk band The Real MacKenzies usually puts things in perspective for me on off days, if you catch the lyrics.
calvaria:
Whenever I had days like that in my old neighborhood, I would walk down the street to the cemetary and sit under this one tree where I could see the whole place, and every last gravestone. I would listen to what the wind would whisper, and it would soothe my soul as well as quiet the chatter in my brain. For me meditation and silence might be nerve racking at first but it helps me more than music when I'm at my worst moments.
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