sweetzen

i woke-up depressed this evening. i havent been able to shake it. i guess i should be used to it by now but being depressed still pisses me off, even when i have a reason to be...
my husband admitted to me a few days ago that he has been sneaking money and buying alcohol and pot with it. as an addict the last thing he should be doing is drinking and smoking. but that i could deal with, he's an addct and addicts slip sometimes. what upsets me is that he has been outright lying to me about it. we are human and will make mistakes, i can understand that and work past it pretty quickly but lying is another thing. when i find out he's been lying to me habitually about one thing it throws everything he says into question. how am i supposed to know what to beieive? can i beleive anything he says? i really hate this! why does the man i love have to be a bipolar addict? i just want life to be simple. things will never be simple with him.
how do two people who love eachother know when enough is enough?
he's finally gone into recovery and that gave me hope but his confession dashed those hopes. it was easy to have hope before i knew everything.