sweetnsassy2854

I'm back!!!

My trip was great. Lots of partying, beer drinking and sex!!!

I did almost have to smack a ho.
Friday nite my bfs roomie had some ppl over. One of them, i'll call her kslut, told me she wanted to have sex with my man!
i guess she didn't realize who i was, and we had all been drinking. i jokingly said "if you touch my boyfriend i WILL punch you "
she appologized.
then my bf came home from work, and he called me out on the porch and said. that girl in there tried to make out with me the other nite, but i love you and i wouldn't do that to you. i told her no.
then he tells me that if he were single he probably would have fucked her!

ugh! TMI TMI!

we went back inside.

later i went out on the porch with my friend kelly.
i heard from my boyfriends open bedroom window, him and Kslut talking.

I said "what the fuck is my boyfriend doing with that girl in his room" and i took off like a bat out of hell! (vodka and redbull gives you wings!)

i stood in the door and saw kslut about an inch from my bf and her saying but 'rachels not here, shes outside, no one will know.'
he was all "no, you should go, my gf's here."
she was like "shes out side with kelly smoking"
and hes like "um shes standing behind you."
and shes like 'stop lying.'
i got a bit upset and locked myself in the bathroom, took a few deep breaths and went back inthere, grabed that bitch up and said
"you NEED to get fuck out, RIGHT NOW"
"whats wrong?"
"GET THE FUCK OUT NOW!...GO, NOW,NOW,NOW"
i took her drink and pushed her out, shut the door and was like WTF was that?
oh i was going to pass out and she followed me in here and tried to make out with me.
i told him that i wasn't happy with that situation and if i see it again i will not tolerate it.

i walked out and told kslut if she does anymore stunts like that i will hurt her and gave her a kiss on the forehead.

but it did really make me think about how much you have to trust the person you love, and how hard it is to trust after being hurt by EVERY guy for sooooo long.

so i ask this, is it worth it? is it worth loving someone who is 350 miles away. should i invest my trust into someone i can't even hold? he says he loves me, but so did all the others, especially peter, who said to me "i will fuck other girls, but i'll always come home to you, you're the one i love, not them"?

why do i take my insecurities out on the ones i love the most?

well, the answer is, yes i trust him and yes i love him. i truely believe that this man will not make me hurt like the others. and yes his love is worth all the trust in the world.
but i will smack a ho if i have to, so Kslut's beware!

i also went to chicago.

sweet