Thank you all for the birthday wishes. I would thank you all individually but I don't have the time.
Playing my piano or my violin, even singing.... all of this is causing me so much frustration. And I haven't found the inspiration to finish my latest painting. (And I'm not willing to make such a mess working on it again....) I live for these creative... Read More
After reading several comments on my recent blogs, I sat down for a good while and just thought about everything going on right now. I've been searching for answers for so long, and I've finally got a few!
I am not desperate for a relationship with someone. I'm not actively looking for someone to date. Hell it's been over 7 months and I must say... Read More
Some people go most their lives looking for that one special person. I hope your search isn't that long, but it is always worth whatever wait awaits you.
Just when you think my hands have fallen off from typing so much.. BAM!!! Another blog entry!!!! this one is long, and very... well.... it's not full of dumb shit like it usually is.... I'm pouring my very weird thoughts out here. Grab a cup and drink up if you think you can handle it.
We get so used to school that it breaks us. We start at six and then go until we're eighteen, twenty two, or even forty. I think you should find a hobby that isn't puter based. I am taking baby steps and my hobby is Wii or sketching with what little talent I may possess. That should help with the monotony. I've wanted to try knitting, but not sure if I would be dedicated to it enough.
While a new love is such a promising thing, you should maybe look in to why you crave it so much. I've read about you sabotaging yourself many times, and each time the same element in each story is you. Is it a fear of being alone that grips you, or the need for human contact? If you know what you're searching for it would be easier to find. Taking each relationship as it goes and finding what you did or did not like is one way to go, but is a very hurtful trip through self discovery.
Come to California sometime and see how you like the feel. Being near the ocean is a wonderful place to be when you want to feel free. Where you can see to the end of the world and your mind has the possibility to be unrestricted to dream.
I find myself in such a familiar place as this yet again.
That sickening feeling is overpowering, like the stench of rotting garbage.
In some ways I see myself as that very rotting garbage.
First comes the chills that run through my body with a sickening shudder.
Next comes the metallic taste that lingers for hours.
Quickened pulse followed by a tightening heart painful enough... Read More
babe, it is in no way selfish to want someone for moments like this. you know it, i know it, the rest of the world should fucking know it too. <333 take care of yourself. i'd be there fer ya if i could
so as some of you chatters heard last night, i found out someone got me something off my wish list for my birthday. i came home for my lunch break and lo and behold! a package at my door!!!!
i opened it... and the In Flames In Live We Trust dvd was inside! I am so incredibly excited!!!! i'd watch it right now but I... Read More
EDIT: someone bought me something off of my wish list. i have no idea who it is. anyone got any clues....? i would like to send a thank you note but i don't know who got me the gift.
will you be my valentine?
no you won't, because you are far too great of a person to ever waste your time with me.
it really mad my rough night better 
I love you darling. 
So did you get many prezzzies in the end?
x