sweetnepenthe

i made a new friend a few weeks ago. we met at a show my ex was playing. and we started hanging out after gigantour on the 7th. he is one of the coolest, most honest, and funny people i've met in a long time. it's such a relief to be able to hang out with a guy and not have him expect anything of me! i'm sick and tired of meeting guys and trying to be friends, only to find that all they want is to fuck or something. why is it so hard to have guy friends? why do they always think me being nice is just my way of trying to get with them?!
i lost my glasses at my ex's apartment last night. so basically that makes me blind. but he found them this morning, after looking for well over an hour. for an asshole, he sure can be a sweetheart sometimes.... he hates to admit it too.
he is still the greatest kisser that ever fucking lived. it's not easy to walk away from that. i have no emotional attachment to him really. i like his company, but i'm not heartbroken by him dumping me. so i guess that's good, right?