woohoo i'm gonna get a visit from a very special friend soon!
WARNING: RANT AHEAD!
yea i hate complainers. but today i don't' give a shit.
work sucks. i'm exhausted. i've never worked this hard in my life and being sick like this makes it so fucking hard. every goddamn day is a challenge. i'm running out of energy and it's not getting any easier. i can't even call in sick, i ran out of sick time and if i miss another day of work i'll be screwed. i had to do my treatment today and it hurt way more than it should have. needles have never bothered me. not til i had to start sticking them in my own fucking body. thanks to my med bills and my impending car insurance bill, i'm broke. i'm not even sure i'll have gas money for when i go with my dad to gigantour. so i'll have to make him drive. and i really don't want to do that. my ex-boyfriend is a jealous fucker who can't even let me have some fun at a metal show without being convinced that every guy there is trying to fuck me. i hate the days i wake up with no energy to get out of bed, too sick to get up, and no matter what i do there's no one who can come sit by me and tell me i'll be okay. no one to take me to the hospital when i get sick. my fucking mother has to drive two hours just to take me to the fucking hospital because i'm too much of a fuck up to make decent friends who can help me. i don't want to be sick anymore and i don't want to complain anymore but all i want to do is run outside and scream and cry and make this go away.
WARNING: RANT AHEAD!
yea i hate complainers. but today i don't' give a shit.
work sucks. i'm exhausted. i've never worked this hard in my life and being sick like this makes it so fucking hard. every goddamn day is a challenge. i'm running out of energy and it's not getting any easier. i can't even call in sick, i ran out of sick time and if i miss another day of work i'll be screwed. i had to do my treatment today and it hurt way more than it should have. needles have never bothered me. not til i had to start sticking them in my own fucking body. thanks to my med bills and my impending car insurance bill, i'm broke. i'm not even sure i'll have gas money for when i go with my dad to gigantour. so i'll have to make him drive. and i really don't want to do that. my ex-boyfriend is a jealous fucker who can't even let me have some fun at a metal show without being convinced that every guy there is trying to fuck me. i hate the days i wake up with no energy to get out of bed, too sick to get up, and no matter what i do there's no one who can come sit by me and tell me i'll be okay. no one to take me to the hospital when i get sick. my fucking mother has to drive two hours just to take me to the fucking hospital because i'm too much of a fuck up to make decent friends who can help me. i don't want to be sick anymore and i don't want to complain anymore but all i want to do is run outside and scream and cry and make this go away.
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kirin_ka:
I understand the character type of your ex-boyfriend. He feels that you belong to him. It's typical immature male attitude. If you want to remain friends lay down the law. Let him know that he let you go and he has no right to be jealous should another guy sweep you off your feet. You are free, don't let him bind you down, it's a destructive trap.
scharpy:
oh yeah! I'm a Frugal Muser- north side location. I requested your friendship on the basis that its good to keep your friends close but your enemies closer.... HA! 