sweetnepenthe

it's Saturday. and i don't have to work. and the sun is shining, for now.

it's beautiful

if only i had someone to share this with...

it's strange... i have a boyfriend and yet i feel incredibly alone. i'm so stupid. there are tons of single people who would love to be in a relationship. and yet here i am, in a relationship, and i have nothing good to say.

i went to the bar last night, alone. i went for a lovely walk today, alone. i feel almost exactly the same as i did when i was single. except now there's a guy who calls me every other day or so, telling me he's sorry but he's really busy and can't hang out with me. so instead of being single and frustrated, i'm in a relationship and extremely frustrated.

this just doesn't seem right. i shouldn't feel like this. i don't get it