After reading several comments on my recent blogs, I sat down for a good while and just thought about everything going on right now. I've been searching for answers for so long, and I've finally got a few!
I am not desperate for a relationship with someone. I'm not actively looking for someone to date. Hell it's been over 7 months and I must say I'm pretty happy with how those months have turned out. I just know that I am finally ready to date again. I'm no longer doing drugs, although I will always be an addict. The thought of my first love, the man I almost married (I still have the ring. WHY?!) no longer hurts me. I can look at pictures and no longer cry. The thought of being in someone's life, being the one they turn to when they need help, being the girl who can hold their hand and make them feel like the most special person in the world, the one who can look in to their eyes for hours at a time and never once turn away I'm finally ready to be that girl.
Unfortunately, this is not the place to find someone. This is the place for hook ups and meaningless relationships. I'm turning 20 tomorrow and yet I am more mature than almost every guy I've met here, and they were almost all over 21. I guess that's what I get for living in a college town Everyone I work with is at least 6 years older than me. And I feel at home talking to them. I've tried having philosophical conversations with my friends, and it was such a bad mistake
I'm ready to be that girl. Is the male species ready to cough up the man I'm ready for?
I am not desperate for a relationship with someone. I'm not actively looking for someone to date. Hell it's been over 7 months and I must say I'm pretty happy with how those months have turned out. I just know that I am finally ready to date again. I'm no longer doing drugs, although I will always be an addict. The thought of my first love, the man I almost married (I still have the ring. WHY?!) no longer hurts me. I can look at pictures and no longer cry. The thought of being in someone's life, being the one they turn to when they need help, being the girl who can hold their hand and make them feel like the most special person in the world, the one who can look in to their eyes for hours at a time and never once turn away I'm finally ready to be that girl.
Unfortunately, this is not the place to find someone. This is the place for hook ups and meaningless relationships. I'm turning 20 tomorrow and yet I am more mature than almost every guy I've met here, and they were almost all over 21. I guess that's what I get for living in a college town Everyone I work with is at least 6 years older than me. And I feel at home talking to them. I've tried having philosophical conversations with my friends, and it was such a bad mistake
I'm ready to be that girl. Is the male species ready to cough up the man I'm ready for?
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wexsingxsin:
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kirin_ka:
Some people go most their lives looking for that one special person. I hope your search isn't that long, but it is always worth whatever wait awaits you.