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Sunday Dec 16, 2007

Dec 16, 2007
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Violating your mind
Burning, not numb
I'll take anything by now.
Burns through your accusations
Singes your deceptions
Strewn across tissue and vein
Bones should shatter and skin will break
Solder it together
It blows your brain
Just like a gun
It rips you like the plague
And sutures your flaws






no illegal drugs in ... a month?.... i'm on my way smile it's the alcohol that's fucking me up now. and i don't see that getting any better for a long time. i can't even wait until i'm fucking 20 to be a full-blown alcoholic. (to be fai, i'm 19 and a half. that's pretty damn close to 20.) i went to an AA meeting. it was ridiculous. i should have brought some Captain Morgan to the meeting to spice things up. AA can shove their 12 steps up their asses.

after reading through the 12 steps, here is my response to the bullshit. read it. don't read it. either way, have a good week.

1) I am AM NOT powerless

2) I do not believe in your god or any man's god. I am the only one who can fix me, not some fucker sitting on a cloud judging my every action.

3) Again, No God.

4) I know me. I don't need to do any searching. I am what I am and am fully aware of my self.

5) I need not admit to a God that I do not believe in. I admit my faults to myself every day. I look at them in the mirror with disgust.

6) How can people let religion take control over every aspect of their lives? Stop blaming Satan, stop thinking God is the only one who can make things better. Blame yourselves for what you do wrong, take responsibility. And have a little faith in YOURSELF to get things done. Don't pray to God to fi everything.

7) Shove the humble pie up your ass and hopefully the pain in your anus will open your eyes and your mind.

8) I apologize when it is necessary. I rarely regret my actions, I rarely do something so wrong that i feel any regrets.

9) see #8

10) I don't need to write a fucking list. I'm not 80, I remember shit.

11) I do not pray. Meditation, yes I do that. But I don't meditate in a religious manner. I have no desire to fulfill "god's will". I have only the desire to fulfill my own, and to help others achieve their goals.

12) If someone chooses to seek help or religion, let them. But don't ever impose your beliefs on another. If God wants them, he will seek them out. Don't become a leech, sucking at the blood of the weak minds who are easily persuaded.

13) yes, the 13th step. Amazing album. Go fucking listen to it.
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revolutionary:
The first thing life must teach us and instill in us.

THERE ARE NO RULES.

This is life we live it how we best see fit and what best suits us at the time.

To err is human. It is simply what casts that line that divides us from anything less sentient.

I am glad you are doin good with getting away from the drug thing. That is a huge deal in itself to walk away from. You are not an alky I don't give a shit what anyone tells you. Your therapy for the life that ails you is not simply a shot from a black labeled bottle. You choose to do what you do on your own accord. Don't ever let anyone label you with anything but your own name.

Dec 16, 2007
merlina:
i had problems with alcohol......but now...i'm very well..... wink
Dec 17, 2007

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