i'm coming home tomorrow!!!!!!! or maybe friday early morning at the latest, i can't wait to get out of the hospital. it's been an insane couple of days..... i had to deal with all this shit that i thought i would never have to go through again. but it's almost done. and i couldn't be more happy. so i'll be back in madison just in...
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it's rant time. becaue i'm in the hospital and i feel like being a bitch....
as much as i appreciate my alone time, reading quietly or watching a movie, it is really nice to have some company. or at least know that my family is thinking of me while i'm here. not a single call, email, nothing. my mom and dad live half an hour...
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as much as i appreciate my alone time, reading quietly or watching a movie, it is really nice to have some company. or at least know that my family is thinking of me while i'm here. not a single call, email, nothing. my mom and dad live half an hour...
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cage_e:
hope you get out soon!!!
anjuli:
you are sweet 
and i hope you get home soon or at least more conversation for the time being.
and i hope you get home soon or at least more conversation for the time being. 
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the_boss:
Yes it does.
cyureus:
Not many people can pull off lookin cute in a hospital gown. You rock that shit. 
<33 
<33 i'm in the hospital. got here around 5pm on saturday night. i'm not sure when i can go home, but it should be within the next few days, maybe even tomorrow! i'm finally able to eat and drink again, but i'm still in a shitload of pain. so as soon as i can get off the pain meds i can go. (i think)
thank you...
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wyldewolfe:
you are definitely in my thoughts get well soon
cyureus:
O_O; *hugs* feels betters hon <3333
all i can think about right now is how much easier this would be if i had somebody to lean on. am i selfish for wanting somebody in my life who i can look to when i get sick like this? i feel like i'm being selfish.
when i get to the point of not being able to get out of bed for more than...
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when i get to the point of not being able to get out of bed for more than...
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wyldewolfe:
YW 
lusteye:
Hey Sweetheart, you're not alone. You have people here for you, who do care for you. I know I'm one of the many. 
i know i keep saying thank you, but really... THANK YOU to everybody on this site. you have no idea how much you all mean to me i hope to someday meet you all and thank you in person for your support and your kindness
Who knew a simple text message could change the entire mood of the day.
so there was this guy i...
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i hope to someday meet you all and thank you in person for your support and your kindness Who knew a simple text message could change the entire mood of the day.
so there was this guy i...
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the_boss:
Mmmmmmm HI!
lucabrasi:
Definitely try to find a way to graduate, if you're that close I'm sure they'll work with you. I've been reading your blogs about the rest of the stuff going on in your life, and haven't known what to say that wasn't cliche. But hey, cliche things are usually true so, you can totally face your demons and win! You just have to view it as todays struggle and not a grand challenge. That's how I feel, anyway.
guess who's back? before you roll your eyes, trust me, this is for the better.
rehab just isn't for me. i'm not the kind of person who can sit in a circle with strangers and whine and complain about my addictions. i spent one night there. i put my foot in the door, realized that i didn't like what i saw, and backed out. i...
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rehab just isn't for me. i'm not the kind of person who can sit in a circle with strangers and whine and complain about my addictions. i spent one night there. i put my foot in the door, realized that i didn't like what i saw, and backed out. i...
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revolutionary:
We allready talked but you know how I feel stay strong
puff:
sounds like u made the right choice, rehab helps some but it's not for everyone.
I'll keep my fingers crossed you manage to get thru it without it, but positive news like the job is always helpful.
x
I'll keep my fingers crossed you manage to get thru it without it, but positive news like the job is always helpful.
x
i'm gettin' gone!
went to medical center to get some tests. i failed the drug test, but i already knew that. i mean, it's rehab, duh. i only wish i did more drugs, really give 'em a fright. my anemia returned, but that's no biggie. i got new doctors here in town so i don't have to go all the way to illinois anymore. they...
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went to medical center to get some tests. i failed the drug test, but i already knew that. i mean, it's rehab, duh. i only wish i did more drugs, really give 'em a fright.
my anemia returned, but that's no biggie. i got new doctors here in town so i don't have to go all the way to illinois anymore. they... Read More
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_interrobang_:
I wish you all the luck in the world, Nichelle. What you are trying to do is not an easy task so I think you are going to need it. Sometimes it seems so easy for us humans to become complacent in our situations, even when they are slowly killing us. I know it takes a lot of guts to pull yourself out of that rut and change your lifestyle. It also takes a lot of perserverance and whole lot of time. So please, just don't become disheartened if the results you want don't come quickly. Have patience with yourself. Because if you don't, no one else will.
kirin_ka:
I would wish you lucky, but others covered that. I wish you strength. The strength to face your demons, to stand up to them, and to overcome them. I cherish your decision, not only because you are trying to better yourself, because you are taking a very hard road. You are starting your journey on becoming a hero.
As always, you have my attention and shoulder if you ever need them, but this time you also have my strength. If you ever need a little extra it's yours.
As always, you have my attention and shoulder if you ever need them, but this time you also have my strength. If you ever need a little extra it's yours.
made up my mind. i'm going. getting some help. i may or may not have internet connection where i'm going. and i know in my heart that i'm probably not going to get any better. but at least will be able to say i tried.
i feel like a fool for hearing what everyone has to say, but not really listening. but i looked in...
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cyureus:
We're here for you, love. Use us. 
Get better. Get Back.
Get better. Get Back.
puff:
good luck hun x
might be going away for a while. still debating. i don't even think i should bother trying to get better. it seems pointless. i'm just going to do my best to help other people for as long as i can. i don't really care what happens to me. "Now is not a time for sadness and despair, but a time for hero's, champions, and great...
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the_boss:
Didn't we have this discussion at one point? Should call me.
cyureus:
i regret not actually talking to you while you were 2 couch cushions away from me.... something i hope to make up for
i regret not actually talking to you while you were 2 couch cushions away from me.... something i hope to make up for Heading to Urgent Care in a few.... 
Think for yourself,Question authority.
Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening,
terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in
this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the
religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by
giving us order, rules, regulations, informing,...
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Think for yourself,Question authority.
Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening,
terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in
this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the
religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by
giving us order, rules, regulations, informing,...
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cyureus:
urgent care? why? you okay?
cyureus:
hon you know better than most people that the power of music can do a lot.. I did a report once on the healing powers of music on traumatic patients, and how it affects them. music is therapeutic, inspirational, calming... you could prolly name so much more. do something with the music. yes it makes you feel good, but it also makes other people feel good too. something good WILL come out of it.
Last night I realized that I chose the wrong career. The wrong school, the wrong degree, the wrong everything.
All of this, 27 days before I graduate. This is a most disturbing wake up call.
If I wasn't so addicted to SG chat, I'd leave the site for a bit. Actually, I'd probably not go online for quite a while. I haven't gone to work...
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All of this, 27 days before I graduate. This is a most disturbing wake up call.
If I wasn't so addicted to SG chat, I'd leave the site for a bit. Actually, I'd probably not go online for quite a while. I haven't gone to work...
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theinsomniac:
Think of it this way, you'll have a degree at 19. That's when most people are just STARTING their collegiate careers. There is plenty of time to go back and get another one in another field.
xjwigluszx:
I definitely wish I could leave the site at times, but every time I keep coming back and I don't know why. But I understand the chat thing, I got hooked on that when I was sent away for work and was 1300 miles from all my friends, it got me through sitting bored in a hotel.
Sorry about all the other stuff. Sometimes when you evaulate things it can be hard for yourself, I have been there before. Best I can say is stay strong avoid the other temptations, you will feel better about it later I'm sure.
Sorry about all the other stuff. Sometimes when you evaulate things it can be hard for yourself, I have been there before. Best I can say is stay strong avoid the other temptations, you will feel better about it later I'm sure.
I'm glad that your getting out today!! Kudos! I don't know if you got my message that I tried to send you yesterday. The internet at my school crashed when I hit the send button.
It wasn't a big message but it was in a sense.